I will no longer be posting here.  I bought my own domain.  sweet-melissa.org

I’m pulling for the Colts.  I hope they show those Bears what’s up.

I am craving a Sweetheart blast from Sonic. I saw the very funny commercial today and I have to have one. There goes my damn diet right out the window. Although I did exercise for the first time in god-knows-how-long. I didn’t break a sweat but my heart was racing. I’m blaming me not sweating on the fact that it was only like 30 degress outside … yeah that sounds good.

So, Cole slept in his bed last night like a champ and without a fight. He has also been doing alot better with the potty. It has been a struggle with it and we finally quit pushing him so hard and he just started doing it on his on. It’s not completely consistant yet. But, he is doing a fantastic job. I will be so happy when we do not have to but pull ups anymore. That will save us a bundle. I’m looking forward to that!

I uploaded a few pictures of Cole’s bedroom. He is a very proud Lighting McQueen fan!

Well, Cole has been sick the last few days so him sleeping in his new bed was postponed until tonight.  He’s doing good so far.  I just hope he can stick with it this time.  It’s so much nicer being able to cuddle up with your hubby without a squirmy toddler in the middle. 

My days have been completely off this week.  It doesn’t feel like friday at all.  I guess because I went out with some friends on Wednesday night and that is abnormal for me to being doing things during the week.  Who knows.

Well, I’m off to take advantage of this alone time with the hubby. Goodnight.

Tonight Cole will be going back to his own bed.  The last few months he has been sleeping with Shawn and I because he was scared of a bright light that was shining in his window one night.  The neighbor forgot to turn his spot lights off on the side of his house and it caused Cole to think it was a ghost light.  If you have ever seen the movie Cars, you’ll know that the ghost light was a prank that they played on Mater.  So, ever since Cole has seen that he has associated that with the bright light that was shining in his window that one night.

I’m hoping tonight he will go back to his bed.  He will sleep so much better and so will Shawn and I.  We have reassured him over and over again that the light isn’t a ghost light.  So, we will see what happens.

I love this picture of Cole & I. He looks so sneaky.

I’m sick and it freaking sucks.  Saturday morning I had the most amazing massage ever (Go see Jenny at Spa Dels).  And, I felt great until about lunch time and I all of the sudden got this horrible migraine and slowly started gettinga fever, runny nose, cough, etc.  My blood pressure even sky rocketed to 150/98 .. way too high especially since I take blood pressure meds daily.  I was honestly pretty scared.  I don’t know whats wrong.  I guess I just have a damn head cold.  But, if I don’t feel better by tomorrow I’m gonna head to the doctor.  Ugh.

 I’m so tired of laying on the couch because I feel like ass and I have no damn energy.  I have too  much to do.  Back to the couch I go ……

I am completely jealous of the women that have that natural mother instinct. I am not one of those women, at all. Don’t me wrong, I love Cole more than anything in the whole entire world and I do my very best to be the best mother that I can be. But, it doesn’t come easy for me. I struggle with certain decisions and second guess myself alot of the time. It also doesn’t help that my husband was born with that natural instinct. I swear we reversed roles. We always kid about that. It’s just so strange how that can happen.

Shawn and I have discussed many times that we don’t want to have any more children. We feel that it’s just not right for us. It’s really irritating when our parents or our peers feel the need to say “It’s time to have another baby blah blah blah” and we simply reply with “No, we don’t want anymore”. Why can’t anyone just take that answer? Instead people will say “No, you dont mean that. I know you want more”. No, we don’t want more. Just accept that and be done with it. It’s not like it even matters to them. It’s like they just talk out of their ass or something. Just shut up already. haha. Sorry to be bitter about this subject. I just feel it’s no ones buisness for them to say the things they do. Shawn and I both think we should both start saying “Some day” rather than “No, we aren’t having anymore”. It seems to shut people up. It’s really frustrating.

I honestly don’t know what brought this particular subject up. I guess it’s because Shawn and I were talking about this at lunch today. Oh well.

I leave you with a picture of Cole right before Christmas. Isn’t he funny?

This is Cole and my dad hanging out on the bed. I believe Cole was watching a country music video and playing along with his new guitar.

I don’t know why I even take the time to delete my blog.  I always end up coming back.  So, I am hoping I won’t get bored and I will keep up with this thing this time.  I don’t really have much to say right now. But I will update soon.