Mommy & Cole

I love this picture of Cole & I. He looks so sneaky.

Sickly

I’m sick and it freaking sucks.  Saturday morning I had the most amazing massage ever (Go see Jenny at Spa Dels).  And, I felt great until about lunch time and I all of the sudden got this horrible migraine and slowly started gettinga fever, runny nose, cough, etc.  My blood pressure even sky rocketed to 150/98 .. way too high especially since I take blood pressure meds daily.  I was honestly pretty scared.  I don’t know whats wrong.  I guess I just have a damn head cold.  But, if I don’t feel better by tomorrow I’m gonna head to the doctor.  Ugh.

 I’m so tired of laying on the couch because I feel like ass and I have no damn energy.  I have too  much to do.  Back to the couch I go ……

No more babies

I am completely jealous of the women that have that natural mother instinct. I am not one of those women, at all. Don’t me wrong, I love Cole more than anything in the whole entire world and I do my very best to be the best mother that I can be. But, it doesn’t come easy for me. I struggle with certain decisions and second guess myself alot of the time. It also doesn’t help that my husband was born with that natural instinct. I swear we reversed roles. We always kid about that. It’s just so strange how that can happen.

Shawn and I have discussed many times that we don’t want to have any more children. We feel that it’s just not right for us. It’s really irritating when our parents or our peers feel the need to say “It’s time to have another baby blah blah blah” and we simply reply with “No, we don’t want anymore”. Why can’t anyone just take that answer? Instead people will say “No, you dont mean that. I know you want more”. No, we don’t want more. Just accept that and be done with it. It’s not like it even matters to them. It’s like they just talk out of their ass or something. Just shut up already. haha. Sorry to be bitter about this subject. I just feel it’s no ones buisness for them to say the things they do. Shawn and I both think we should both start saying “Some day” rather than “No, we aren’t having anymore”. It seems to shut people up. It’s really frustrating.

I honestly don’t know what brought this particular subject up. I guess it’s because Shawn and I were talking about this at lunch today. Oh well.

I leave you with a picture of Cole right before Christmas. Isn’t he funny?

Dad and Cole

This is Cole and my dad hanging out on the bed. I believe Cole was watching a country music video and playing along with his new guitar.

I’m back.

I don’t know why I even take the time to delete my blog.  I always end up coming back.  So, I am hoping I won’t get bored and I will keep up with this thing this time.  I don’t really have much to say right now. But I will update soon.